Blue dreams rule...

Blue dreams rule my being, which is sad and I'm trying to get a revolution happening, but the ruling powers are using weapons of the mind and the fate of the universe to keep me down.
So I push back, I try to be the rebel, to overcome this oppression. Alas the tides not turning and the currents dragging me out to sea. Yes the odd battle in my war on life is successful but the war wears on. I have resorted to chemical weapons in this struggle for freedom and it's given me breathing room, but the airs feeling stale and I think the ceiling is leaking.

Google Talk

Well I just had a play on google talk and I think I like it. The sound quality on the dialup was really good. Ok, so I gave it 100% bandwidth but hey, that's what I expected. So that's really exciting.

I saw Fantastic 4 tonight with a new friend. It was good, nice to get out with new people and see strange movies. The movie got a 7 out of 10 for is cg and story.

I also got the container done, and have started resorting my place. Making space in the small studio and moving junk from the house to the container. It's all very exciting.

I am also trying to get my new website up and running as well as working on the kupenga site, so I'm going to be busy as before I head off on the 6th to Rotorua.

Not many posts

Yes, I am lazy. I have not posted for ages, so what have I been doing. Well not much, I have almost got my shipping container sorted, so that's exciting as I'm heading off to Rotorua for a month and will be letting Tes and Corné house sit here while i'm away. I'm a little nervious about this but I'm sure it will all be good and I think they need some space and time to get sorted for there next move. I have also been looking at digital camera's again and dreaming, also looking at getting a new HD or two, I'm looking at getting a couple of sata-150 drives and hooking them in raid.

Oh and I was also given a 50mb (1000mb traffic) website (by a new friend), which I'm going to use for www.takeme.co.nz and also for www.kupenga.co.nz. I have been working on the kupenga site, putting the images I have onto flickr, I and adding images from past symposiums, 1996, 1998, 2000, 2002, 2004 and the 2006 symposium when that happens. So I'm excited about that. I will spend most of my time building the sites when I'm in Rotorua, to give me a break from my jade work. And speaking of my jade work, im planning on makeing some works based on the stoneage clubs. I will try and find some examples but they are very sexy star shapes with holes in the center, I will also be working on the venus's and pendints too.

Oh and I have to send out luck and hugs to Tania for this commig week as she's got a ton of test's to do and I hope the results are all good for her.

What's been happening

Well, I did a bit of work on my container, I have the two outside faces done and the roof done also (but it still needs painting and bog). My dolls are on hold as my life is consumed by the container, as soon as that's done, I can move on to organizing other area's.

Ok, so this will need a re-edit to figuer out what im on about today.

New sites and Stuff

Here is some things I enjoyed seeing.

Barbie

"On the Ambivalence of Things - Patricia Waller's Crochet Work"

little box » Hidden Windows Apps

comprehensive knowledge of auto-starting locations of any startup monitor


flickrTagFight

http://www.gahooyoogle.com/

Video Encoding VP7 by On2 - not so good

Yes, I'm a geek and I like doing Video encoding, I don't know why, I guess it's my on going love of cruching stuff. I have tried DivX and although it's good and becoming a global standard, I don't like it because I have not had good results, still I have to say I like what the DivX team has done in release 6.

I must state I am a fan of VP6, it's got fast encoding, the image quality is great and it makes small files. But as for VP7, I am not so happy, the encoding speed is not to hot, with speeds of 1-4 fps (frames per second), VP6 does 6-14fps. The file size of my first tests are bigger than the results of VP6 . So I'm a little disappointed. I hope that this speed issue is a matter of settings or the fact that I have the Home/Personal edition. Still I will keep on with the testing of different settings and see if I can get happiness from this sex cool codec. I'm looking forward to working with the VP7 realtime encoding. Maybe it will be the magic setting that I'm looking for.

VP7 by On2 what's so hot about it? Well a nice writeup is here.

can i go blind?

A new study by US psychologists found that people shown erotic or gory images frequently fail to process images they see immediately afterwards. And the researchers say some personality types appear to be affected more than others by the phenomenon, known as "emotion-induced blindness".

OMG how can I sleep know the internet may make be blind.

Sadness of from my dreams.

Well I'm back and about to go again. Depressed, great, it will pass, I will great then, so I wait.

David Lange died, he's been sick for a long while but he is not going into the ground at a private ceremony. I thought he was great and did a great job considering what that wanker dictator Rob did to the nation.

I had a dream the other night, it was one of them hopeless ones. In it I had a free choice, to suffer or dive of the cliff onto the rocks below. Well I jumped, and was falling, you know the falling dream thing. As I was falling I felt great, I had euphoria as the excitement of it all being over soon was approaching. Then I was standing on the sand and the hopelessness returned. I thought it was strange.

My new tools great for the stone work, I would post a picture but I poor and don't see how I will get a camera in the near future. Maybe by x-mas, this year.

Also had a pain of an evening, house guests, who where just using my space as a free zone. Just being big rebels and on there own trip and not thinking of where they are and where I am at. Argh, it's so fustrating that they can't see me, that they can't see my eyes, my feelings.

Well time for my daily pill to keep me from the tearing heart feelings.

some of this is very true but I think some of it's out of date in these more modern times, well in nz anyway

Yes, i'm pro gay, but I'm not gay myself.

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I
wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

Home

Well I'm home again and on the net, still unpacking from my two weeks away that turned into six. Being home is good but leaving rotorua was hard as the friends there are so great. Still the friends here are good to. Well friends are great. Tomorrow, I'm off op shopping with some more friends, having friend is wonderful.

So I'm back, place is a bit of a mess and I will have to spend a week or so sorting out what's going on. I have to find some money to pay IRD there pound of flesh too. Ugh, so many bills and so little money.

I did manage to buy some new tools, yeah strange, I say I'm broke but I also go on about new tools. Anyway I have got two diamond laps and a diamond flat lap so I am now set for small jade works. Well anykind of small stone works. But I still have two tools that I really want. One is a point carver and the other is a drill press with hole saw. That would give me a pretty fine looking studio.

Well that's me, no stories of my away. I did have a prob with winz but that's all sorted now.